College = Waste Of Money.

Well I'm moving back to NY soon for this very reason. I guess you have to learn from your mistakes I guess. When I get back I'm going to enroll into a recording arts school. Something I actually want to do so that I can fulfill my dreams of being in the music industry. And I put this on everything if I make it (when I make it ) as soon as I stabilize my financial situation I'm going to start with a few schools where you just go to learn what YOU want so you don't have to sift through these bullshit ass extra classes that they make you take. Kind of like trade school I guess.. now why aren't there more of those or ALL of those because some of this other shit is just stupid as hell and unnecessary. and it just pisses me off.. sigh ok I'm done.. but think about that.

Life is..

fucking roller coaster then it drops.

We Were Once A Fairytale

It's pretty cool and different. I don't really know what I took from it yet except that maybe fame kills which Kanye seems to be emphasizing a lot about these days.

Today was my birthday I feel like I've been alive longer than 20 years.

My Own PSA

It's come to my realization that I've been an asshole to someone I truly love.. Macy. This is something or someone I thought I'd never be - and for that I'm truly sorry. This is someone I promised myself I'd never hurt yet I pretty much abandoned her in her biggest time of need a weight that I should be able to bear (if thats the right word for it). Abandoning her was my way of copping with the situation instead of 1. Being honest and 2. Just being there overall. Macy I know you'll see this and I hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I love you with all my heart and promise I'll never do anything like that again. I hope I can earn your trust back and we can be we again like we were. That is all.

This is niceee

October

What a way to start October a month that should make me happy since my birthday is in 16 days.. yet I wake up from a horrible night terror feeling alone wishing I had someone next to me. I'm not complaining though - I kind of feel like it was God asking me to speak with him. I lay on my hands and knees in the middle of my bed thanking him for what he's done for me these past weeks and asking him to continue to bless and protect my family & friends. I then lay in my bed reflecting on how horrible in my opinion the night terror was I decided to go on my porch. It's so beautiful out not hot at all just cool and calm. The only heat I received was from the bright sun shining through the screen of my porch listening to The Fray and enjoying how beautiful it is outside. Sometimes I have & need these moments where I'm alone. I enjoyed that and now I feel good again. Happy October people.